I was SO worried that being the 6th child and the only one NOT going to be breastfed for at least 6 months, somehow she’d FEEL less loved?
Or that I would feel LESS bonded to her?
Or that somehow her babyhood would be less magical ?
I was honestly devestated when I realized breastfeeding was making her sick. And that formula made her happier.
Maybe I was offended. Wasn’t I, her mom, supposed to be able to BE her EVERYTHING?
Wasn’t I supposed to be able to give her EVERYTHING ??
Wasn’t I was supposed to be able to give her the BEST?
Well, the other day I was feeding her a bottle and she reached up and put her hand to my mouth.
I often kiss her chubby hands as she’s trying to fall asleep. So she’s learned to reach up for a kiss from her mama at 51/2 months old.
In That moment it hit me. I wasn’t sitting there mourning that I wasn’t breastfeeding. The fact that she was drinking a bottle didn’t even cross my mind in that tender moment..and it didn’t cross her mind either.
What she knows, in my face. What she knows, is my smile. What she knows, is my lullabies. What she knows, is my LOVE .
She is warm. She is held. She is FED. And she is LOVED.
That’s what she knows.
Mamas. Sometimes we feel like we have to give our kids the VERY BEST OF EVERYTHING.
Breastfeeding
The best organic crib sheets
The best organic baby food
The best toys
….
It pressure doesn’t change when the grow up either.
The best schools
The best opportunities
The best gifts
The best vacations .
Sometimes, in our desperate need to WANT our KIDS to feel attached and secure we THINK they need the BEST OF EVERYTHING.
I mean that’s what out culture says being “a good parent” is, right?
Well it’s F-A-L-S-E.
They don’t NEEED any of that.
They need YOU.
You in your bathrobe with your unwashed hair.
You in your exhaustion.
You in your messy imperfection. ❤️
YOUR LOVE ….is more than enough. ️
In fact, I think every child would give all their toys and fancy experiences to spend life cuddled up on the couch in the safety and warmth of their mothers love.
Let go of trying to give the the BEST.
Because God already gave it to them mamas.
It’s Y-O-U ❤️
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